Childhood

The Streets Talk
When the Streets Talk I heard him say “that’s all you get, when all you know is the streets.” I thought long and hard about the response. Reason being, that’s all you get when you choose to not want better. When you make excuses for ill mannered behaviors, using code words from the urban dictionary, robbing, and embracing terminologies such as YN, and YB, it automatically ignites a fuel to fight for change. Not just within myself or the community, but also inside the threshold of the world, whatever that may look like at the time.
By Charelle Landers6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds, Part 7
We’ve just sat for hours with someone ‘confidently’ dismantling a story that, for a lot of people, is tied to childhood, family, morality, meaning. Even if you’re not a believer, there’s a weight to watching someone rip through it with “hidden history” and “they never told you this.” It’s very normal to feel a mix of fascination, anger, relief, or even a kind of vertigo after that. You’re not overreacting if it shook you.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds, Part 6
The Prometheus material is similar. There are indeed fascinating thematic parallels between Prometheus and later ideas of Satan or Lucifer: a figure who defies the high god, brings knowledge or fire to humans, suffers for it, is bound and tormented. Ancient authors themselves sometimes played with these resonances. But those are literary and philosophical parallels, not genealogical ones. There is no historical chain that runs “Enki → Prometheus → Satan → Jesus,” as if these were successive masks of the same being. The video treats them that way, because it is always looking for a single hidden pattern, but that is a choice of interpretation, not something the sources force on you.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds, Part 5
The conversation felt weak and unbalanced; The interlocutor in that video often doesn’t know basic historical facts. And that’s not my imagination. When someone with weak historical grounding interviews someone who is very confident but not academically trained, the result is exactly what I sensed: a conversation that sounds bold and revolutionary but collapses the moment one check it against real scholarship.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds, Part 4
To be even more explicit: 1.About Epiphanius, the Panarion, and heresiology When scholars study Epiphanius, they do not rely on Wikipedia. They use the critical editions and commentaries published by Brill, Oxford University Press, Cambridge University Press, and similar academic houses. The standard English translation of the Panarion is by Frank Williams, published by Brill. Williams’ introduction explains in detail that Epiphanius is a polemical writer whose descriptions of heretical groups must be read with caution.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds, Part 3
Extra points i thought to bring to your attention: When I said modern scholarship on heresiology and the Panarion is clear that Epiphanius is polemical, I’m thinking of people like Frank Williams, who produced the standard English translation of the Panarion for Brill, with a long introduction explaining Epiphanius’ methods and biases; of Averil Cameron, who has written extensively on late antique Christian polemic; and of David Brakke, whose work on Gnosticism and heresiology (for example “The Gnostics” and his studies on Athanasius and Egyptian monasticism) shows how heresiologists constructed enemies rhetorically. These are the kinds of names you’d see in university syllabi, not just on Wikipedia.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds, Part 2
Why Epiphanius looks “clean” online but sounds extreme in the video Epiphanius lived in the 4th century, long after Jesus, long after Paul, and long after the earliest Christian communities. By his time, Christianity had become institutionalized, and the Church was trying to define orthodoxy and eliminate competing interpretations.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
Wheat and weeds
The conversation from a podcast, i saw last week, explores how some of the earliest Christian writings and alternative traditions paint a very different picture of God and Jesus than what later mainstream Christianity adopted. The host and guest discuss how certain ancient groups, especially Gnostic thinkers, believed the creator figure in the Old Testament was not the ultimate divine source but a flawed or even harmful being. In their view, Jesus appears not as the obedient son of this creator but as a messenger from a higher, hidden reality who comes to free humanity from ignorance.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.6 days ago in Confessions
The Life I Might Have Lived
Would my life be better if I didn't drop out of high school? If I didn't take SSRIs and Zyprexa as a teen? If I worked hard to learn and refine my craft (or crafts) from the beginning instead of wasting my time on infatuations, lies, anger, politics, etc?
By ANTICHRIST SUPERSTAR8 days ago in Confessions
One ingredient that we all need . All humans: patience! Part 4
It’s also important to say this gently: taking medication and aloe vera in the morning is good, but it doesn’t erase the need for the daily choices that support your stomach. And those choices are exactly where patience is tested. Not the dramatic kind of patience, but the quiet, repetitive kind that says, “I’ll take care of myself today, even if it’s boring, even if it’s inconvenient.” That’s the kind of patience that builds strength over time. It’s not about perfection; it’s about consistency, and consistency is always built one small decision at a time.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.8 days ago in Confessions
One ingredient that we all need . All humans: patience! Part 7
This pattern also teaches us something about how He works in our lives. He rarely transforms us by overwhelming force or by replacing our weaknesses with something entirely new. Instead, He takes the little patience we have, the little faith, the little love, the little willingness, and He multiplies it. He takes the small beginnings of virtue and turns them into something far greater than we could ever produce alone. He does not ask for perfection; He asks for what we have. And once it is in His hands, it becomes more than enough.
By CA'Di LUCE * Confessions & Memories in Conversations with friends!/ It’s not a revolution—it’s a quiet evolution.9 days ago in Confessions
I Kept Expecting Something They Didn’t Have
“We do not see things as they are, we see them as we are.” — Anaïs Nin As a highly empathetic person, I heard from a young age the usual:
By Sophie D.9 days ago in Confessions