Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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Inspiration cometh
It is still in the process of manifesting but, I am considering going back to some projects or to develop my resume and such that I complained about before to Kim. I mean, I can't tell someone I can do better than them and not have anything to show for it, otherwise I am trash. I unfortunately made my life a bit harder for that, but I do know that is completely within my ability to do so, its just about collecting enough energy to do that.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Next steps
Today is Venus trine Jupiter: This transit could lead to a well-deserved income boost or a surge in your self-worth, given that sweet Venus, your ruler, is now in your daily routine and wellness sector as it connects with fortunate Jupiter in your money zone.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Shit Morning
I wake up to a good morning from Jahon which was nice, but I feel like... I am feeling we don't work together well to be honest, or rather. We aren't working at all so I can't say it is bad or good because it is just non existent. I mean, he was trying to calm me down through text last night I guess but, all these events: the shitty vocational coach, my shitty boyfriend, my shitty family... I am so tempted to just go back to freelancing or try harder with freelancing despite the pay being so poor. It would wreck a lot of the plans I have now, but I am honest, the cold months are coming in and, with me not having a car, there is going to be less I am able to do physically going forward without money.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Game on
I had a great conversation with my boyfriend last night. It was sort of born out of us both having sort of shitty days. He had to replace a tool at his work and the replacement ended up being the wrong fit so he just curled up into a ball and died. I was walking and a bug flew into my mouth and I puked into someone's lawn because I overthought eating a fucking bug and then when I got home I had the worst rash on my butt from walking too much. Just smothered myself in the zinc oxide stuff.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day:北極光
I am thinking about all I got to do today. I woke up with no chains on me, I fell asleep on the couch and feel pretty regenerated right now. I talked to Cas from Cedar Hills. I think he is more mentally ill than I thought but, since he is from an artistic family it is like, it can be excused?
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 点灯夫
Today I had sort of late start, but it pretty much went down like it normally does. When I was at the gym I got a call from a Californian number, it sort of scared me. I wondered if it was my dad or, a cousin of some sort maybe calling me.. I didn't know how I would react if it were my dad so I didn't want to answer it in the middle of a gym. I am not sure where a conversation with my dad should take place I don't even know what that sort of conversation would do. It is easier to just avoid the situation, even if means I might not see him again. That's pretty hard to say but, I can't risk my mental health to be dragged into some sort of chaos by him.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 治りかけ
For the past couple of days I have been down with a fever with chills and constant coughing. I had a few fever dreams and drenched my clothes 2 times. Today, I feel a bit better so I figured I could make an entry here but, I feel so off kilter, my spiritual self feels so hollow, like I was taken off a giant wheel and now I am in the dirt trying to walk along this road.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
